By Ted Kooser
S. H. 1940-2002
We were both young, in our late twenties,
vain and full of ourselves and The Arts,
unimportant to anyone out in the world
who might matter, but we mattered to us,
and we mixed up a bowl of plaster of Paris
and stirred it smooth with a tablespoon,
such a white white, as if it were spooned
from the moon. With cotton you plugged up
your nostrils and smeared Vaseline over
your face, then fitted a plastic drinking straw
into your lips so you’d be able to breathe,
and lay face up on the rug in my apartment
with newspapers spread under your head,
and closed your eyes while I ladled spoon
after spoon over your face, your warm breath
whistling in and out of that straw. Who
you were then, old friend, was right there,
under that thick, slowly hardening crust,
your charm, your dream to go to New York
and be famous, and I remember how one hand
spidered out over the carpet, and dabbled
(stanza break)
in the tassels of dusty fringe at the edge
while I sat beside you, and the plaster set up.,
and I put my hand above the straw’s end
to feel your breath on my palm though you
couldn’t have known. After your death mask
had hardened, I very carefully lifted it off
and you sat up, relieved, and took it from me,
a heavy, clumsy bowl, your face inside out,
you peering into the dreamer you were.
You then took it away with you, planning to
make a cast of that face. Thirty years later,
having been famous for a while and then
not, you died of cancer, poor in New York.
Surely somewhere is our chalky white mold
of your face, your eyes closed as if sleeping,
lips pursed around a black pencil-sized hole,
as if you were taking the last sips of our lives
as we knew them when we were young.
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